Some of you know that during my DD's pregnancy, I developed hypertension at 36 weeks and had GD (barely failed) but it was controlled with diet and exercise. So, I went to see my midwife today. She took some blood--some to determine my blood sugar for the past 3 months (in %, not exact findings) and just got a sample to determine what it was like today. Then, came the blood pressure. I try and relax but its hard. I forget the top number but the bottom was 88! High! If I have 2 readings of 90 or more, it is considered chronic and I won't be able to have a home birth.
I am going to borrow a monitor to have it home to take my own readings and I am just hoping that they will be lower and give me a better understanding of what is going on. I had my BP read at 8.5 weeks and the bottom number was in the 70's. I don't know if I have the "white coat" syndrome but I just need to know.
I hate starting the pregnancy off this way. I am starting to feel defeated. My husband and midwives tell me I need to find a way to channel this stress but it's just not that easy. Maybe I just need to come to terms with the likelihood this won't happen for me. But I am a fighter and want to try! I just want to be able to have a normal experience! It's hard. Thanks for letting me vent.