My son is almost 10 months old, bedshares, and has been breastfed on demand since birth. We had a bumpy first several months, per the norm, then everything settled down and we hit a good stride. Bounce, pat, sing, nurse to sleep by 8, nurse at around 11, nurse around 4, and awake between 7 and 8 most days. Because he fell asleep by 8 and wasn't yet rolling over or crawling, I could put him in our bed, turn on th monitor and go hang out with hubs and have some adult conversation and relax.
Recently, our stride broke. He fights sleep like never before, which is saying a lot. And it sometimes takes 2+hours to get him to sleep only to have him wake 45 minutes later. Now, instead of waking at 11 and 4, he wakes every 2 hours to nurse and nurses for up to 30 and 45 minutes.
That in and of itself would be easy enough to deal with but add it to the fact that he will only nap while being worn and bounced and now nursed in the Boba, I'm exhausted. He's a big baby at 25lbs and wearing/bouncing for upwards of 4 or 5 hours a day is killing me. Add to THAT the fact that on the rare occasion that I can get him to sleep in the bed, I can't relax bc I'm afraid he's going to roll/crawl/fall onto the floor and you're looking at one burnt out mama. I know I could attach rails to the bed, but we can't really afford it right now. Our mattress and boxsprings are on the floor so it's not really too high, but still I worry.
I don't want to nightwean and I don't want to stop cosleeping, but he's just so restless at night I wonder if I'm doing him a disservice. And that he is so completely dependent on th boob to fall back to sleep...I mean, I certainly don't want to sleep train, but that level of dependency can't be good, can it?
I'm just so tired. And so is he. And I just want to know that all this is normal and ok and I haven't broken him or ruined his prospects for falling asleep on his own one day.
Edited by Mama2Max - 2/14/13 at 3:20am