Lately I have been stressed, having trouble sleeping, not having energy, not wanting to clean things, when usually I am a very clean person. I can't sleep at night and if I do I can barely get out of bed in the morning. I feel alone, and like I have nothing, not do nothing, for myself. I feel depressed, alone and neglected. I didnt know alot about breastfeedng with my son and did for 6 weeks but stoppee making milk. With my 4 month old i was induced again, when i wanted to go into lavor on my own. i was home 24 hours after having her, and had my sons birthday party two days after coming home. My husband went back to work the day i left thw hospital so i was home with both babies alone. I breastfed for 4 weeks but my doctor gave me the estrogen birth control pills and told me theu were safe when breastfeeding. Needless to say my milk dried up. Now My husband and I fight constantly, a lot of which I feel is my fault. And some days I just want to disappear and live a normal 20 year old life. Not struggle through life ND school the wag I am. But honestly my kids are great and my husband isn't too bad.
Who do I feel like this? Is it ppd or am I just stressed? What can I do for it?