mattie, I'm so sorry to hear it. It sounds like you're doing ok for now, definitely give yourself permission to grieve and feel lousy and cry and do all that.
May you have a swift recovery and get your rainbow baby when you are ready!
Sending you healing vibes!!!! And also a story of my own.. I miscarried during my first trimester and the conceived my second child the next month. It can happen very quickly Take care if yourself.
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