Anyone else feeling mixed feelings about how having a baby will affect their lives? When my hormones are on a swing, I start feeling a bit nervous about the downsides of taking yourself off track from your goals outside the home. I haven't been pregnant in 8 years so its just weird for me to go back to the beginning again. Do those of you who haven't had a baby in eons (or ever) feel mixed feelings at times about the intensity of a baby's affect on your life?
I am experiencing the total opposite - I'm having mixed feelings about the intensity of my life's affect on my baby. I guess it's really just the age old question about career and family either way. The thing is, I'm not super dedicated to my career. I've found something that I'm good at, it gives me opportunities and I make decent money, and I don't hate it, but I don't find it particularly inspiring either. I've daydreamed about leaving so many more times than I can count, and my preference would be to stay home, at least while our kids are small. But I'm just not certain we can afford for me to leave my job. I guess that's why I've stayed so long. I feel like now that I'm pregnant I'm putting pressure on myself to make career decisions around this baby. Is this career that I don't love worth putting my child into daycare? Ugh, thank goodness we have plenty of time to sort this out.
Also, I didn't see this part coming AT ALL and I feel a little silly even saying it, but I'm feeling kind of...weirded out about pregnancy. Like, reading about everything that's going on in there kind of occasionally gives me an "ick" factor. I dunno what the heck is up with that. Looking at pics of early development are making me feel like something totally alien is growing in there and I'm just feeling strange about the whole thing.
Yes!!! I was really creeped out by the "this is your baby week-by-week" pages on the internet, but I think that's starting to change now that I actually saw our nugget on the ultrasound monitor. That didn't creep me out, but all the diagrams and pictures online of someone else's embryo or a hypothetical graphic of a fetus just don't do anything good for me. Then again, I wasn't a fan of my biology text book in school either!