We've told most of our family and a lot of our friends. I'm quite open and have told anyone that we would tell if I had a miscarriage...so not my ILs but almost everyone else in our lives.
I'm really struggling. Even being on here to post is hard. I'm feeling quite nauseous and have wicked indigestion (holy trucker burps) and my hips hurt like they did by the end of pregnancy with the other two, but I'm struggling much more with feeling so down. As in I've been depressed before and feel like I'm teetering on the edge of that black hole. I'm terrified. I'm can't go back down there. I'm in tears just typing this. Both other pregnancies I've actually felt more even, more balanced, and happy. This pregnancy was planned and wanted for quite some time. I spent much of the previous six months getting healthy, losing a few pounds, improving our diet, running again, and getting better routines around the house. All that is gone. I'm convinced I'm going to feel this bad for the entire pregnancy. I have two kids to take care of all day. I just can't go down this road. I know my life is good but i can't shake just feeling really sad. I can't even say what is bothering me because it's not like I'm spinning thoughts. I'm just really sad.