Since I was on bed rest, my mom came up for a few weeks in Feb to help. She was going to come anyway so hubs and I could get away for a night before baby. Well that didn't work, but it was nice that she extended her stay to help out so much. She hasnt spent that much time with us before. When she was here, she sounded awful, and we figured it was her asthma kicking up and the cold, dry air here. Well she went home and found out it was fluid on her lungs. Then in just this short time found out it is cancer. In two places, near her ovaries and some near her lungs. I don't know all the details yet, but my sister said it will be nine weeks chemo, surgery, and then another nine weeks. Oh course she won't be traveling and I won't get down to see them until summer since they are 1000 miles away. I didn't let myself really process any of it until this morning and now I am having a pretty rough day. I know she is going through a lot, but is also trying to not make it hard on me. I feel bad for being the only one living far away and not able to help. I am bummed for her to not be able to meet her grandchild for who knows how long. My sister who is a midwife is supposed to come up for the birth, but I feel guilty if she is already missing work to help out with my mom's dr appts. Just a lot to process and I wish that I hadn't let myself start to process just yet.
I'm sorry to hear that. I hope she recovers quickly and that she can meet her new grandchild soon.
I wanted to mention too, that I tried to do a cervical check on myself on Sunday. It just felt like mush in there. I did one at about 29 weeks and my cervix was long and hard and closed. What does it mean if its mush? I couldn't even feel to see if I was dialated, but I've been having so many cramps lately, I thought I would check. Who else here does checks on themselves? I didn't do it with the last 2 pregnancies though.
My cervix has been mush for weeks and I think I'm pretty effaced, but I can't tell if I'm dilated. My cervix is still up super high and I can't reach it very well. I assume shortening means effacing? I didn't check myself last pregnancy, so it's new to keep track of things this time.
I feel like I made a huge accomplishment today! I prepared 6 meals to go in the freezer that can go in the crock pot after baby is born! I was super crampy and had several contractions while I was prepping all that. I was on my feet for 2 hours straight. I also felt different emotionally/hormonally when I woke up this morning. First I was super crabby, then teary and emotional. I told DH about that and the cramps and ctx, and he was being really sweet, but said he's not quite ready. I'm not quite ready, either, but we're ready enough! I just have a few loads of laundry to finish and tomorrow I plan on cleaning DD's room while she's at school (AKA getting rid of a bunch of crap). The ctx have died down, but I'm having TONS of BH now. I think it'll be soon, but I suppose this could go on for weeks.