starfish that is so hard. What a difficult situation. I have a special needs son and we had thought about adopting a special needs baby, since we were pretty sure we didn't want another bio kid. We weren't really ready financially to do that, but it was definitely on my mind. So many kids with heart defects who need medical treatment and loving homes and we know how to deal with that. Our PG was a surprise too, and I'm totally in shock. I just peed on another stick just to be sure, and the HCG line is darker than the control line, so it really must be real.
Thanks, Mama. I'm still stumbling through the myriad emotions today. And you are so right about the kids with heart conditions. Such treatable issues when a family has access to healthcare, you know? Right now the guilt is just overwhelming although that's being unfair to myself because this was not planned and we have been using birth control. It took a few months to convince DH that this was in the plan for our lives. I don't know that he will be willing to do it when it means a fourth kid. And I get that. And respect that. But when I looked at our future I saw this child joining our family and being a part of our lives. I keep joking to DH that the local parochial school doesn't charge tuition for any kids past 3 so what's one more? ;)
And the poas is so funny. DH could not figure out why I kept testing last night and then again this morning. I mean, the tests are glaringly positive. As soon as I pee on it the test line turns as dark as the control line.