Gender Disappointment / Expectation? - Page 3
Yay! A girl! so exciting.
We're not finding out ahead of time and I'm happy with that but I like hearing about those who are finding out.
My acupuncturist friends did my pulse points today and told me that she's nearly certain we're having a boy, so officially NO ONE who I have talked to thinks we're having a girl. I feel like our anatomy scan is going to be more of a confirmation and less of a "guess what your baby is!" excitement moment.
I was trying to read up about it. I am super skeptical about the efficacy of complementary therapies, but I really try to keep an open mind and acknowledge that I feel there are things we have not yet got science to explain. I think acupuncture (and chiropractic) could be things that I slowly come around to, even if I cannot fully explain it.
Apparently, depending on the gender of your child, your pulse vibrates differently, like being stronger on the left or right, being fast or slow, and some other adjectives (there are like, 20 of them and I wasn't paying terribly close attention, truth be told!) 16 weeks is the magic week when it normally becomes stronger and apparent (much like that wedding ring on a string thing, I noted!) but at 14 weeks she said mine was particularly strong towards boy. And I didn't tell her beforehand that EVERYONE thinks boy, but she does know we have two daughters.
I feel like a total schmuck this week. I am steeling myself for official confirmation of boy, and I went and separated my DD's clothes by "obviously girly" and "gender neutral" because if it is a boy, I want to be able to donate the girl clothes without any guilt/sadness/etc. and just focus on the new. I feel like a completely terrible mother because I had a little irrational pregnancy meltdown and loudly declared to my mom and DH that I didn't want a boy and how he would know NO OTHER boys until school and I feel like he'd just get mowed over in favor of pink tutus and princess junk that my MIL lavishly gives to everyone. I think I am realizing that it's not the boy who has the problem - it's me, feeling an insane and irrational amount of guilt over my shortcomings in my abilities to parent a boy. It's just a gender and babies are babies and they will be loved, but seriously, I feel like a petulant 3 year old. My younger DD is SUCH a hard kid to raise for me and I am so worried that this baby is not only going to be the extreme challenge that she is, but then extra steps to make him (if it is a him!) feel welcomed in such a gaggle of women.
It's been a hard week, and in the end, I will adore him, so I hope everyone takes my whining with a large grain of salt!
Here's my little bean!
Now, he/she would NOT cooperate so we couldn't find the nub. Though I'm not sure that little horizontal line isn't it... I'm still thinking boy but am not 100%... DD is so funny, she was watching patiently while I got the u/s and then said "maybe there is a ducky in there too? Not just a baby!"
HAHAH! She loves ducks SO much she wants one to be in mama's belly. For crying out loud... she's very excited and likes to feel my belly for the baby all the time. <3 <3 <3