I have been collecting various complications as this pregnancy (my second) has progressed. I am currently 26+4 weeks. I had early bleeding - not just spotting, but bleeding with clots, etc., off and on from about 6-12 weeks or so. Ultrasounds showed an absolutely perfect baby, vaginal check showed huge bulging blood vessels on the exterior of my cervix. So, I was put on pelvic rest... It is not considered a risk to the pregnancy, but apparently any irritation of the cervix could possibly result in change to the cervix.
Then came the gestational diabetes diagnosis at 11 weeks. Yes, very early diagnosis, indicating I was likely borderline diabetic to begin with. I can control my post-meal blood sugars through diet and exercise, but had to go on insulin at night to help with really high fasting blood sugar numbers in the mornings. This has been really tough for me. I'm not a really organized or super regimented person in general, and having to eat specific amounts of specific foods, at very specific times is daunting and tiring for me.
The diagnosis of GD comes along with a lot of extra doctors appointments and increased monitoring in general. Then came the diagnosis of a marginal cord implantation, which can result in the baby being under nourished. This also comes with increased monitoring, extra ultrasounds to check baby's growth and an increased likelihood of early induction.
Now, just this last week, it was discovered through ultrasound that I have high fluid levels. The doctor says they don't do additional testing (just more monitoring!!) unless the fluid levels reach 25cm, my measurement is currently 22cm. However, the average reading is 14-15cm. The high level of fluid could be due to the GD, but also could indicate the baby is having trouble swallowing, a kidney dysfunction, or a neurological disorder...
So, I'm pretty overcome with worry. I have been reliant on antidepressants and anti anxiety meds for a few years, which I stopped at the beginning of my pregnancy. My brain just doesn't stop with the what-ifs and I am having trouble sleeping. I have had trouble
bonding with this baby boy I guess all due to the worry and concern that I won't really get to have him in my arms in three months.
I guess this is just a vent post. I am happy that this forum is here simply so I can write out my thoughts and worries. Thanks for reading.