Beckeroo- 
Hi...I hope your hormone issues get cleared up soon. I imagine I have some hormone issues, too, but I haven't yet been tested. Holding off for now, for some reason...not totally sure why, I imagine that I am afraid to open a whole can of worms.
Prescottchels - I have been praying that your little bean sticks! 
I also want to hug some chicks...I have dreams of having chickens, but first I have to see if I can even get a garden going.
AFM - BFN this morning
Chuord-sounds like your veg is cut too thinly and/or was in for too long...have you tried experimenting w/thicker cuts?
The work I do gets down to core issues stored in the body as well. It's so so important to clear those old patterns and traumas that keep us stuck where we're at. We're all onions w/so many layers. Just when you think you've got a handle on something, the Universe shows us that there's more work to be done.
Beckeroo-your time will come! Hang in there! There's lots you can plant in containers if you have a patio/balcony!
Earthwalker-thanks for your prayers. I truly appreciate them.
My mom drove up to visit for the afternoon to celebrate my birthday, but since everything is about her we went out shoe shopping so she could find new shoes for work lol I'm so glad it was just a few hours-whew! I kinda have a headache from all her complaining and wah wah wah-ing...I'm ready for a nap... 
I did get some b-day $$ and an easter basket full of goodies, yes, still...at nearly 36 
It's CD 28 and I'm still feeling positive about this cycle 
Hi everyone, I thought I'd drop in and say hello. I've relaxed a bit over the last few days and I feel we're finally getting forward with this move thing (German bureaucracy, trying to stay ) . And pressure at work eased up (project got delayed)..
wow chuord, I've never heard of Kinergetics but like beckeroo said, it sounds quite intense. I hope your new found peace will continue 
. A couple of years back I was having a particularly difficult time with DP, mainly because our subconscious behavior (not justified on both our parts) was dragging us into the same fight over and over - I'd say most couples have a core fight they act regularly. It took a lot of self reflection and analysis to even understand it. It's a habit really, once the trigger clicks, we fall back into the same old subconscious ways. Now we know why we fight, we recognize the warning signs but still can't seem to get a grip on it (at least not always). Around that time DP bought me a book (he does that sometimes and the titles always piss me off but they end up being good choices 
). It is truly one of the best I've read: "The Dance of Anger". I still try to recall her tips when I feel the anger in me rising and old behavior starting to take over.
mamacats, prescott, everyone else,
AFM - how awesome is this, I'm not sure which DPO I am (either 6 or 7) because I stopped taking my temperature after I confirmed ovulation. Next Saturday I'm flying to Arizona and I think just before I travel it'll be 13 DPO so we'll know before I go. I'm also happy that this weekend & next week is busy busy busy so hopefully I won't have time to mull over any so-called symptoms. And in all honesty, right now I'm more obsessing about leaving DD for 9 days and how she will handle it 
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LiliKay- Good to hear that life is a bit less stressful for the time being! on the worries about traveling without DD. My DS is 3, and I have yet to travel with him. I recently had an opportunity to go to a 4 day conference, and although I turned it down for more practical/strategic reasons...my main worry was being away from DS for that long. There is a chance I am going to get a new job where I will have to travel to conferences at least a couple times a year, so I need to get used to the idea.
Beckeroo- I am thinking that I have decided that I will do some basic tests if I have another loss...but if I don't get knocked up soon, I might have to reconsider. I also want to go the natural route. I am afraid to find I have a clotting issue. I also know I have some hormone issues- I have been quite furry all my life *blush* , with reading it seems I have a lot of free testosterone. Plus, my family has autoimmune issues. I was borderline lupus in high school, but when I went away to college (and got away from family) the symptons almost disappeared....which leads to
kinergetics, chuord, wowza..I will definitely need to look that up. Sounds intense! I completely believe in the power of the subconscious and the body acting as a storehouse/fortress of previous pains. I have done an itty bitty bit of work with Emotional Freedom Technique, aka tapping...but I haven't really delved into it. It focuses more on the body storing previous pain. I also had a termination in my past, and I have worried that it has led to some of my issues. I had not considered the emotional issues, well, that is lie, I have thought about the emotional issues that it has created in my relationship with DH (it was ours, before we were married and piss a$$ poor)...But as for fertility, I mainly have focused on the fact that the termination might have caused cervical scar tissue that might have led to my cesarean. Fortunately, I now know this is a possibility so I can look out for it if and when I try for my VBAC. But now I am thinking I would be wise to search for some threads on the emotional processing of termination...to help me to start thinking about this.
Prescott- Happy Birthday! Yay for goodies! Keep up the zen! (And I am still praying..)
AFM- I have left all my cheap preg. tests at work, so no testing for me this weekend! After being irked about it, I realized that I am feeling more relaxed now about the whole thing. I will just see if AF comes. I expect her on Sunday or before. At the moment, I feel like all my symptoms subsided. Alas! For now I am just happy that my luteal phase has made it past 10 days...assuming AF does not come today.
And I totally forget to wish y'all a HAPPY SPRING! Praise the great fertile powers of the universe! May they shower down upon us!
LillyKay-glad to hear a few things have settled down in life for you! Whew!!
Recognizing our triggers and choosing to take another path can be a real challenge, but it's so worth it!!
Earthwalker- EFT is an excellent modality to use on any sort of issue and bonus if you're already familiar with it...Tap away!!
And happy spring to you!! Love that last line and all those smilies
JustJenny-How was your RE appt the other day?
Beckerooo-Such a bummer you don't have a patio! Drat. But if you know you'll be at your mom's regularly I totally vote for putting in a small garden or container garden there! Yahoo!
Chuord, Mamacat-
I had a minor freak out last night. Went pee and had a tinge of red on the TP. In that moment I thought for sure AF was starting and was begging her not to come and begging & pleading w/the soul of this child who hadn't entirely committed yet to being here, to just. be. here. now. PLEASE.
Sheesh. It's CD 29 and my birthday and I was hoping for a positive hpt this morn (wouldn't that have been the most perfect b-day present, ever??), but alas it was still negative, but I'll be happy with just a now show AF today. Keeping my fingers crossed that it was just a bit red from that lil eggie nestling in even more
The back story I haven't told anyone, not even DP and the main reason I'm thinking this cycle is a possibility is because my best friend, who is also my bodyworker, who is also an amazing medical intuitive can see that this child's soul is dancing around the idea of being here and bigger than that she has an EAV machine that reads the electrical charge of your meridian points, which can tell you which organs or systems in your body are out of whack or not. Monday she wanted to test something on me and all my points were balanced even my allergy point even though I'm having horrendous hayfever, cuz it was picking up the baby instead of me and that has never happened before even when I've had more physical symptoms and intuition of pregnancy and then Wednesday I wanted to test the Vitex to see if it was good right now or not-it's not, and all my numbers were still balanced. So I'm cautiously optimistic this is it, and so is she. 
chuord- very interesting! We use a lot of hypnosis and guided imagery to clear/discover our subconscious load. So wonderful to hear you are working on your stuff and having big break through's! I just wonder how many of us get stuck on hostile emotions regarding sperm and sex. As girls we're taught to be afraid of pregnancy and sex. Associations with sex being forbidden or being shunned or shamed by family if one becomes pregnant are deeply ingrained in the subconscious mind and our physical cells. When it comes time to ttc our stagnant body's don't come along for the change in outlook. Same thing with rejection of our own bodies. I personally have a terrible time with this and have to constantly re-process and adjust my thinking patterns. Our cell memory and subconscious are amazing to me too! Hope that smile remains on your face for a long time! 
Prescott- Glad to hear your recovering from your Mom's visit. I feel that way after my Dad visits. Some personalities are so incredibly draining. They live out of state so when he comes I have to deal with it for 3-4 days. Happy Birthday! A bfp would be a nice present for you...fx'd for you 
beckeroo- Hi again! Glad your back and hope you get everything straightened out soon
earthwalker- LOL, the universe has a funny way of protecting us sometimes 
. Enjoy a peaceful weekend and that AF stays away.
LilyKay- Happy to hear things are getting easier to deal with for you. Soon you will be relaxing here in AZ. It should be perfect weather for you! Fx'd for your bfp too!
AFM- Had my IUI yesterday and feeling hopeful. We have a busy few weeks before a planned trip in April so I will have plenty of distraction to help with the obsessing. So now we wait!
Anyway, greetings all! Pinched on time so short and sweet:
. I'll look into kinergetics as well, sounds right up my ally. Thanks so much for sharing! I totally at the picture I got of you beaming at everyone and the guys being all confuzled lol. I'm so glad the kinergetics opened up some blocks for you. What does "antm" stand for? You said you were watching it? . Wow, time sure flies! I can't believe your Arizona trip is next week already! Yeah, trying to break out of old patterns is definitely a challenge. But knowing they exist in the first place definitely gives you guys a leg up.
I hope you're feeling good and recovered from your mom's visit . EAV = electronic acupuncture ___? And yeah darlin' talk to that baby! Mayhaps this soul will make up his/her mind soon as the wait on this plane is excruciating. I hope AF keeps her distance for you period ( I wasn't trying to do that there lol) but today of all days especially.
. Well I meditated, they mostly played which is great as well 
. At one point I remember thinking "How awesome would it be for me to conceive today!" More that this is the cycle for you! . Not much of anything. Just doing my thing you know? Kind of blah since the sun went away again 
. Hope you guys go into the weekend feeling good! 
JustJenny- on your IUI!!
Mamacat-EAV is Electroacupuncture according to Voll (Dr. Voll was a German holistic medical practitioner that invented the device about 50 yrs ago). And Beckerooo-Have you guys looked into Maca and/or Vitex aka Chasteberry? Both do great things for balancing hormone levels.
Chuord-I love the, let's call it, premonition! about Mamacat being preggers already 
AFM-I made it thru another day w/o AF showing up!! It's CD 30 and that lil soul is being such a bugger!! Trying oh so hard to be patient 
practically saying my affirmations non-stop all day these past few days lol Today is busy & full w/supervising a visit between a mama friend of mine & her kiddos and then my b-day party this evening and finishing making my cake at some point too! Hope you all are having a splendid weekend!
. I'm going to be all 
if you have indeed called it! Oh, and I'd love a reconnective frequency workup when you have the time 
. Happy romancing! 
. Sounds like you've had a wonderfully full day . Great for the . Have some extra cake for me! 
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I'm thinking of changing my location status to "bloody hell" 
I'm hiding under the covers today
I'm so sorry The Wretched showed her face prescott 
. Ugh! I'm so angry and frustrated for you darlin' .
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