And I can't get it anywhere but here. Anyone in my regular life, even those who support bf'ing, will likely just tell me to wean her. DD will be 17 months old next week. Two weeks ago I got a plugged duct, treated it, got it under control, but before it started to go away, I jerked away from her in pain when she latched on and ripped a bit of skin off the side of my nipple. Treated it, kept nursing. It's healing, the plugged duct is gone, but my left breast is still pretty tender and sensitive. Her toddler wiggling and fidgeting while nursing is unbelievably uncomfortable with this extra sensitivity. The pain makes me angry. Makes me angry AT her. I hate this. I'm getting cranky and short with her and I'm afraid she's going to wean simply because this is becoming so unpleasant for both of us. I don't want to wean or night wean but I am beginning to unlatch her after bedtime nursing and encouraging her to fall asleep with cuddling instead.
I keep repeating "never quit on your worst day" to myself. Help me get my emotional reaction under control so I can work on nursing manners with her and we can continue peacefully. She's not terribly verbal so it's difficult for me to talk to her about it, and she gets really upset when I react negatively to the discomfort.