Ggrrrr

[mocha09]

I receive money from grant funding, conditioning on my performance in class and at my interneships.

Dd's dad, who is supposed to take care of her while I am in school, did not show up once last quarter, and once showed up drunk. Two missed days of my internship.

I leave at 7:45 in the morning, and he works until 6 am, so I leave my apt door unlocked for him to come in and take a nap on the couch before I leave.

Last week, he didn't show up once when I had class, and this morning, I tried to wake him up, and he was dead drunk. I dragged him out the apt door and left him in the hallway. I missed a very important meeting with my supervisor this morning, but found 2 very helpful friends to care for dd on short notice. I was still an hour late.

I so so so so so so SICK OF THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait for this damn quarter to be over. In sept, I will begin receiving a subsidy for child care and dd will go to montessori preschool. Right now, though, it just sucks.

Positive thoughts....positive thoughts.....

I am so grateful for those lovely mama friends who are willing to help me out.

[dreadmama]

Ack! Mocha that is aweful!

I wish I lived closer to you to help out with your childcare woes! Just hold on, the semester is almost over and then you won't have to depend on (is that the right word... considering his behavior) your ex!

I can totally sympathize...

I'm struggling myself with a group presentation tonight, a midterm tomorrow, and a craft show on Sat.... and I have my mom and sister to care for my daughter! If I had to deal with my ex during all of this, I'd be an emotional wreck. Kudos to you, my dear, you deserve so much better... but you are doing a fantastic job with what you've got!



Karen

[brusselsprout]

I am so sorry that you can not count on your ex for what he needs to be doing I can totally relate, mine is doing some really unstable things right now too. Maybe it would help if you asked him to call you as he is leaving from work, that way if he doesn't call by a designated time you can start looking for someone to help out for the day? That way you have a little more time....just a thought

[mocha09]

Dread and Brussel....thank you....

Dread, when you called my situation "aweful," with the spelling like that, it put a whole new take on my situation. I am full of awe. Awe at myself for my strength and perserverence. Awe at my beuatiful daughter and our amazing relationship. This is happening for a reason, and I am learning a powerful and beautiful lesson. Do you know what, your situation is awe-full too! (I mean it in the good way.) All of the work you are doing and getting it done without a partner, and being a terrific mom to boot. We rock!

Brussel, dd's dad gets off work between 4-6 am, and I won't wake up for a phone call at that time. Oh well. I only have to deal with this for 7 more weeks. I've lately been believing that all things I am struggling with now are preparing me for the long road of parenting ahead of me.

I'm so glad I have all of you to share our journeys with.

[SingleDad]

Wow Mocha, that really is awful that he's doing that. It sounds almost like he's trying to sabotage you doing something so positive with your life because he is unable to. I'll keep you in my prayers for the next 7 weeks, and in the meantime keep your eye on the light at the end of the tunnel, we're all cheering for ya!!!