I am a single mom and I am scared beyond belief of doing this AGAIN. My 6 1/2 year old has her father in her life, and he is a great dad and we are good friends (I have been friends with him since I was 17.) This baby most likely will not. I had a LOT of trouble out of her dad, as he was VERY mentally and emotionally abusive. I told him that and he said abuse is only when someone hits another person. He does not believe that you can abuse someone emotionally and mentally. He said many times that he believes I cheated on him (never once did I. he just didn't like the fact that I had to work with guys as well as females.) He was also irate that I worked with Mexicans. I asked him why, and he said he hates them. I told him that was VERY racist and uncool, but he just laughed at me. He had it in his head that because I worked with males, that I was cheating on him. I told him time and time again that I NEVER did but he didn't believe me. The day we split (after I confronted him on stuff he said about me that he didn't know I knew) he said once the baby is born, he wants to sign all rights over. He thinks that if he does that, he wont have to pay for child support. The law here as I understand it is he can sign rights over (once the baby is 3 days old) but he would still have to pay for CS, my Dr visits, and the birth (and any medical care the baby receives, as she will have a medical card.)
I am beating my self up over this. I feel like I am an idiot because I couldn't make it work, and I am a single mother with soon to be 2 children by two different men. These last few weeks I have been very emotional. I worry that this fear and some of the depression is going to lead me to have PPD.