Feeling very frustrated with work, work options, work/home balance tonight. We recently had two people at work give notice, both full timers (I'm actually the only part timer). They gave me a heads up that they'd be needing more hours from me, but since the last 3 weeks, I'd had like one shift, that was fine. Except that now they keep asking for more shifts than they know I will take, and trying to subtly guilt me into it (I should say this is only one person, the boss that makes the schedule, not the bigger boss), and also asking for shifts that go against my availability. I've said since I came back that I will work a MAX of 25 hours, and then I've also given then a schedule that basically says, any day that Rob works, I can work between 7am-530pm. Any day he's home, I can work any shift (so between 7am-1130pm). They keep asking for me to work pms 3-1130, on days rob is working.
So... for instance, they emailed me a preview of this weeks schedule to check it with me. This is what it tentatively looks like:
Sun: Rob off, Me 3-1130pm
Mon: Rob 7am-7pm, Me 7-330 ((Ok obviously already a problem, since I won't have gotten HOME until 1230 the night before, and have to leave the house at 6am to get to work on time))
Tues: Rob 7am-7pm
Wed: Rob 7pm-7am
Thurs: Rob 7pm-7am
Friday: Rob off (at 7am), Me 7-330
Sat: Rob off, Me 7-330.
So... 32 hours, rather than the 25 I asked for, and a back to back shift, which they KNOW I can't work (and legally they can't force me to, they have to ask). AND he wanted to know if I could work Thursday 3-1130pm as well, so 40 hours and another back to back. AND means that I leave for work at 2pm, Rob leaves for work at 6pm... and... Tenley... ? I'd have to get my sister or something to come over and watch her, but really asking someone to come over from 6pm until 1230am is a lot to ask, especially since Ten has never gone to bed for anyone else, not really.
But basically with this schedule, and what I'm working this week, it means Rob gets off tomorrow morning at 7am, and I go to work at 3pm. So tomorrow is shot. Then we have Friday together. Saturday I have a meeting in the morning and work in the PM, so Saturday is shot. Then Sunday we would get the AM, but the PM is shot. So of Rob's 4 days off, we'd get 1.5 together as a family. Then all week long, we wouldn't see each other for more than a few minutes really, and then on his days off, I'd be working the first two (and potentially the second two as well...).
Blargh. I guess part of the frustration is that I -like- working. I genuinely do. It keeps me sane, and I really need that time away. But I HATE that we live so far from work, so an 8 hour plus breaks shift, turns into me being gone for 10.5 hours. Also, our sitter only wants to do two(ish) days a week, the other times she's home with Rob, or we're left scrambling to find someone. BUT- his mother and sister, who complain about never seeing tenley and live 3 blocks away, are always "busy", and he doesn't feel comfortable with my sister or my cousin watching her. So we don't really have anyone who can come to the house for potential evening babysitting. Oh and my regular sitter (my SIL), doesn't drive either. It all adds up to a big kerfuffle, and basically me feeling guilty everytime I get a work schedule, even though I -do- want to work!
I guess it keeps making me wonder if there's a benefit to me just going back the full time and trying to get my seniority back. It's a long shot though. And Rob doesn't want me to. He's made it very very clear that he doesn't want to do that. And I mean I get that... it's a ton of time to be away from her-- but if I could get my seniority, then I could potentially work almost only 7-330 shifts, which would be nice.
*shakes head* Anyways... I know this is a big rambled mess of thoughts. Mostly I think I'm still just talking myself through it, trying to figure something out.
I would really, really love to move about 20-25 minutes closer to work (which would still be 10 mins from DH's work, but the other direction, so we'd live in the middle of the two). Problem is that's not really feasible right now with us not even having finished the basement here (ie really not even realized the potential of this house), AND financially too, moving to that neighborhood would increase our mortgage, so I would then -need- to be working more. lol.