Originally Posted by jhalpern
Is anyone else dealing with horrific depression, at least somewhat due to dealing with GD? Everyday I wake up and have to make my four year-old wait while I pee on a stick, then I have to make her wait while I attempt to prick my finger and get a reading (which, for some godawful reason, doesn't always work with one prick in the morning), and then make her wait while I eat the blandest, lamest breakfast on earth. When I get a bad number, I go into a self-hatred spiral. I can't stand this. I am miserable, my family is miserable being around me, and I am having the hardest time making any connection to this boy inside of me. It annoys me like crazy when he gets the hiccups! I don't think anything is cute! I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel! I'm 30 weeks. I have no interest in going on antidepressants, seeing as that would mean more doctor's appointments, more medications (I'm also anemic, and let's no go where the varicose veins have traveled), and who knows what else. Anyone? Anyone?
PS I meant to post this in the gestational diabetes thread. I can't even do that right! Will re-post now. Can't figure out how to delete from this forum.
I really understand this. I was speaking to one of the nurses a couple weeks ago and I told her I don't even feel like I'm pregnant and I'm not even excited because all I'm doing is obsessing over my damn blood sugar. It is difficult. And to make matters worse I also do not completely trust my doctor to know what he's actually doing. He is a wonderful guy who I'm sure knows a ton about birth, but I have a special case and I'm just not sure I believe in everything he tells me. I just got an appointment with a midwife/naturopath who is going to give me some insight. I'm very excited about that.
Have you had your thyroid levels checked? I know, more doctors. Just a thought since you seem to be feeling so down.
Are you on insulin? What breakfast are you having? I'm on insulin at night and in the morning I have a half a piece of bread with lots of butter, two eggs and some kind of meat (sausage it bacon). Mid-morning I have a DELICIOUS whole-milk iced latte sweetened coconut sugar (low glycemic!) with some added chia seeds (it's good!). I usually have some kind of salad and protein for lunch and the same for dinner.
As far as carbs go, I can get away with a small square of chocolate, half a grapefruit, half a piece of bread with butter, stuff like that. And always with a meal. I know there are some that don't eat any carbs at all but this mama can't do that. It may be the insulin that helps me to get away with more.
Let me know what your restrictions are and maybe I can help you get creative. I'm sorry you are feeling down. Please know that you are not alone!