I starting out seeing a midwife around 12 weeks. We had planned a med-free birth at a birth center. I really wanted to see a midwife so/we could get more personalized one on one care. I don't like feeling like just another patient in the office (which is how I feel OB offices are).
Around 22 weeks I starting having contractions. I was diagnosed with an irritable uterus. Things have since calmed down but we have switched to an OB and a hospital birth. I'm really unhappy. I don't like the fact that I talk to a nurse whenever I have a question. I liked being about to email the midwife and getting a direct response. I guess I am a needy patient cause I have a lot of questions. Both DH and I are extra cautious because of the journey it took to get to this point (4 years of infertility and IVF to conceive).
I went in for the 2 hr glucose test on Monday. It's a 10 hour fast and then 75mg of that nasty sugar drink. I kept it down for 45 mins and the puked and have to re-take it. I puke when I don't eat and we eat about 95% organic/unprocessed food. I told the OB that when I saw her and got the paperwork for the GTT. She said that's fine, a lot of people puke. Why am I re-taking the test then? I will probably puke again. I'm upset because they won't allow any alternatives (like testing blood sugars and keeping a detailed diet log). I am just another chart/patient in their office. I hate that feeling. That is why I didn't want to see an OB in the first place. It has me really upset the last few days. It goes further than the GTT test. It freaks me out because I really want a med-free, lowest intervention possible birth. If they won't work with me on the GTT then how can I feel comfortable with the birth?
I've been crying on and off for the past 2 days. I see my OB on Thursday. I rescheduled the GTT for Tuesday. I think I am going to cancel my appointment and wait to talk to my OB when I see her. I will be 27 weeks on Monday so I have another week to get the test done.
I saw an OB at 10 weeks and didn't care for her. That's when we decided to see a midwife. My DH was never comfortable with the midwife. He didn't feel like she took our concerns seriously. We switched to the OB at 23 weeks. Part of me really wants to find another midwife and try for a birth center birth. We would have seen 4 providers if we do switch. I'm just uncomfortable emotionally at this point with the thought of birth and care through the rest of the pregnancy. I already feel like I have failed birth and we haven't even got to that point yet. I'm not sure what to do.
I'd appreciate any advice/suggestions for you wise women. Thanks in advanced.