Short update here-- all is pretty well! I am working on sort of reprioritizing things with work and baby, and that is helping me feel more present when I'm with her and less worried about "all the work that has to be done-- yesterday!"
Funny thing about Miss L-- I was reading an old thread on diaperswappers about a seriously colicky baby and realized... She's about 80% of that intensity, LOL. Well, except she sleeps "well" at night. And all this time, I was thinking of her as a relatively "easy" baby, but she's not, really-- I think that speaks to a few things... 1) My own maturity level (for me, it was good for me to wait so long to have a baby!) 2) My hard work on my own anxiety and ADD and 3) I think credit goes to AP and my own pre-baby research, because those things help tremendously with a not-easily-satisfied (I wouldn't say high needs, but highish needs) baby. Make me feel RELATIVELY competent for a FTM, LOL, which reduces the stress.
Oh, and of course, worlds of credit to my awesome DH-- but I always knew he'd be awesome... Well, maybe I didn't quite realize how awesome.
We got our 2-month shots today. We are pretty pro-vax, slightly selective/delayed, but mostly on schedule (moreso than Dr. Sears, for example). I spent a lot of time researching and was very dissatisfied with research on both sides, but did feel better about the vax side for us, especially considering we may go to the Philippines in a couple months, or if not then, within a couple of years. Anyway... It sucked! I know those of you who are anti- or non-vax don't avoid them because of the painful-shot aspect (I mean, I get the impression that if you thought it was best, you wouldn't avoid it just because of some temporary injection pain at the office). So I'm sure you can empathize regardless. She just screamed SO loud.
And there were 4 shots. But she did calm down within 2 minutes or so, so... So far it's been 6 hours and she hasn't done that "wake up screaming" thing you hear about, though she has slept more and been a tiny bit crankier than usual. (She has also given us plenty of smiles and hasn't had a fever of note, etc.) Blah. Even though I feel better about vaxing than not-vaxing, it's hardly a bowl of cherries! DH and I are both home and sort of extra-babying her out of our own anxiety (not doing tons of work as we are letting her sleep on us, LOL)...