I have not posted here in awhile...mostly because we have been super busy during this whole pregnancy.
Anyway, we are getting ready to move from Germany back to Georgia. I am a New England girl, so GA isn't my favorite place, but after 3.5 years overseas...I think I am ready. It is bittersweet I suppose, and our GA move will probably only be for a year, then it is on to wherever else the Army sends up. (That is currently up in the air, but we should know sometime in May.
I am feeling sad about the move, but like I said, a bit excited to get back to the States (Target, Starbucks, Moe's and Barnes and Noble...such lame American things, but I miss them all a little) I have LOVED our time in Europe and LOVE all the places we have traveled...but I am tired of traveling...so all is good. Saying goodbye to friends will be hard, but I don't have a super duper close BFF here or anything. There are def good friends and I will miss them, but so goes Army life. I think the saddest thing is that my son will be leaving his German Kindergarten. He is 3.5 and speaks fluent German...which won't last.
Anyway, we will be moving when I am about 31 weeks pregnant, so that sucks. I have been trying to get the house ready for the movers...getting rid of things always feels good.
So, I don't know if it is everything that is going on or what, I think that adds to it, but I feel REALLY sad. I cry a lot, want to go to bed as soon as the kids are in bed, wake up in the middle of the night feeling really sad...I don't know what to do. I eat really well, run daily, but have gained more weight than I did my last two pregnancies. I keep worrying about that...
I suffer from ADHD (again, I eat REALLY well and exercise 5-6 times a week) I have tried without meds, but it is hard to control without meds, so while pregnant I feel like a bit of a hot mess since I can't take meds. (I usually take adderall. I know, I know...but I have tried other things and it is what works for me)
The weather is finally nice here, but all I want to do today is curl up in a dark room and read. :( I have an appointment with my German OB this afternoon...I will get another u/s (Germans do an u/s at EACH appointment) So, I will confirm that it is a boy, even though I have been told it is a boy a few times already. I am not doubtful, but still...I am just sad that my husband won't be there. My son has t-ball and my husband is bringing him. It really isn't a HUGE deal that he won't be there. Just another little thing.
I just needed to vent...I am at a bit of a loss with what to do to feel better. I feel like it is hormonal, but I am a wreck.