This is my first post here, & I've been thinking about this for months, so forgive me if my thoughts are a bit scattered.
Dh and I have 3 children (I'm pregnant with #4...unexpected!) Our older 2 are 16 & 13, & attend public school. Dh and I both went to the same schools our kids are at, and, with the exception of the past 2 years or so, they were some of the best public schools in the state. Well there have been some changes, and our schools are going downhill. Our son has 2 years left and we think he'll be ok, but dd1 still has 5 years, and I really question whether or not I'm going to leave her in. Not to mention dd2 is only 3 years old...we've both agreed there is no way in hell we're enrolling her in public school with a bunch of heathens. Sorry but so many people here just flat our refuse to parent their kids...kindergartners cursing out teachers, getting suspended/expelled, bringing weapons to school. It is truly sickening and riduculous and i refuse to expose my baby to that crap.
For the past 2 years or so, dh and I have agreed that we (I mainly) will homeschool dd2. Now keep in mind, this was before I popped up pregnant with this baby (I'm about 4 months along now). Now I just can't shake this feeling that I'm going to fail our daughter...that there is no way I'll be able to school her effectively with a baby attached to me. We cannot afford private school. I guess I just have zero confidence in my ability to do this. I've searched and searched for the past year online about homeschooling, different curricula, read homeschooling moms informational blogs, tried to find homeschooling groups in my area, etc. It just all seems SO overwhelming. I also feel like my family & DH don't think I can do it either. No one has ever said anything to that effect...although my MIL is a public school teacher & I know her and FIL probably talk shit behind my back IRT my ability to HS. But they're not really my concern.
I'm sorry for rambling, I just don't have anyone IRL to talk to this about. Have any of you homeschooling moms felt like this before? How did you get over it, or build your confidence in educating your children? Thank you for reading.