Today is Mother's Day which is a time that most mothers are spending special bonding time with their children---whether small, young children or grown or somewhere in between.
I do send a heart full of love to all of you mamas out there.
Today I am missing my Lukas so much! Neither of my adult children are here & they won't be. (no phone calls yet). My oldest called apologetically earlier this week to say that he wouldn't be able to make it after all because he had to work. He had previously told me he was going to have breakfast with me. My adult daughter---no explanation or call at all.
My first Mother's Day since becoming a mother in 1988 without any children. This is harder than I thought. But I do have a mantra that I am repeating more than ever at times: "I am brave...I am strong'" This mantra I first started saying to myself to help cope with and get through the horrific and grueling physical pain I went through after my last surgery on my arm (Dec 2011). That was a long difficult recovery. But I made it through. Lukas was aware of that mantra and for Valentines Day 2012 he made a beautiful collage for me. On the top of the poster board he had put: "Mom---You are Brave...You are strong!"
I cherish that so much now. He was and still is a beautiful soul and he is in my heart forever.
By the way I will not be completely alone today. One of my ministers is on her way over right now and we will be sharing lunch together.
Again a very blessed Mother's Day to all of you.