Still her at 40+6, and not feeling good about it. My parents are leaving for the Virgin Islands for my brother's wedding on Monday night. (There was already a courthouse wedding, so we got to go to that. We were never planning on attending the destination part.) I can survive without them here, but I'll be disappointed if they're not. They will be VERY disappointed. They're very helpful and supportive. They were going to take our girls while we're at the hospital, and though my in-laws can do that, the girls have never actually stayed over there before. My folks don't really like tropical vacations, so they're going to have even more trouble enjoying themselves if they're worried about me, or feeling sad that they haven't met the baby yet. I've still got today, tomorrow and Monday morning to try to make it happen, but I'm feeling kind of down.
My husband and I started our parental leave this week, and now I feel like that was a waste. I could have been at work and not had to take any unpaid time (I don't have quite enough sick days to make it to the end of the school year. I'm a teacher.) The whole week was money down the drain, and no baby. On top of that, I've aggravated a shoulder injury, making all of my pregnancy discomfort worse.
Intellectually, I know that in the long run, none of this matters. I've done this before. Once the baby comes, all of this is in the past. All of the waiting is over, and the 40+weeks I spent waiting for this baby will soon be dwarfed by the years we will spend together. It's just hard in the moment to feel that zen about it.
Wishing good things for all of you who are waiting.