I'm trying to change my birth plan from a natural birth to my now planned C-section and I can't get through it. I can't stop crying. I'm 36 weeks pregnant with twins. They have been breech the entire pregnancy. I've tried everything to get them to turn but it's just not happening.
I had such a wonderful birth with my first. Even when I found out it was twins it never even occurred to me that I would have to have surgery. There are no practitioners in my area willing to attempt a double breech vaginal delivery and I suppose it's for the best. I don't want to hurt them just so I don't have to have surgery but I still just can't believe it.
Not only am I disappointed about the actual birth but I'm terrified about recovery. How on earth am I going to take care of my dd and newborn twins (with little to no help- that's a whole other story) when I've just been split open and need to recover from surgery?
I think I just need to rant but I'd appreciate any advice/support.