DD1 would be finishing her 2nd grade year in PS soon and going into 3rd grade. 3rd grade???? Alarm bells are going off in my head--what has she not learned?? What do we need to introduce?? Are we doing anything wrong??? I need to be more proactive!! Advancement!!
Breathe. Remind myself of many things:
1) Everything she has learned, it is because she wanted to learn it...
2) ...and most of it she learned on her own, and the rest of it she learned by asking.
3) Regardless of what she does or doesn't know, she is still energetic and curious about "learning stuff" and shows no signs of being weary and burned out.
4) She is growing up without all the stress of getting to school, fitting everything into a day and having little time for her own interests.
Something about being "a third grader" and approaching 9yo is setting off these thoughts of academic parity and blah blah blah (sorry, my verbal skills aren't engaged this morning). Nothing is a concern right now. She's not advanced in any way, but she's reading, she's writing and interested in spelling things properly, she has some math skills and is interested in history and science-- so I'm a bit flubbered by these alarmist thoughts!
I know there are a few things I'd like to change about our HSing, mainly something that is nothing academic-- housekeeping! I dream about having a house that is ready for whatever we think of for the day (not necessarily perfect, just ready!). I wish I was a bit more organized in facilitating their ideas-- they have been asking to make bird houses on and off for a couple of years now. Unfortunately this is not my territory, though I wish it would be! If they were to ask about knitting something, we could dive right in it, but they don't. Anyhow, I'm thinking of ways to work this out, and dh is taking the girls out for Gymnastics Day on Tuesday so I actually have time alone at home--something I never, ever get! (I'm going to have to resist spending my time dancing and singing--so no Grateful Dead, but maybe some Cole Porter, like the soundtrack to Delovely.) I plan on getting the house tidied, organized and just a bit cleaner. I hope to do this regularly.
I hope to get the girls more on board with helping me with this. I need them to see the connection between my doing it all alone and the lack of project time I have for them. (But that's not the only reason--I'm a bit lazy and distracted!)
Anyway, to be ready to dive in have been my dream for a while, and I think just doing that will ease some of this anxiety that is bubbling up. It's hard for me to be organized for any meaningful length of time-- it's so easy to digress back to the default operating mode.
I'd like to have more time to make my own music, to pull out my own projects when they don't need me, to dust off the sewing machine and get busy.
Wow. This thread has gone from anxiety about where dd1 is at academically to where I am at in being an effective homeschooling parent! I wasn't even sure I was going to post this, but I see that this feeling is more than just one instance of insecurity-- I have need for some real change!
Finally, my choice of title says it all. (Or not, apparently, because I have more to say about it!) I feel like dd1 has been gearing up for a shift. She stills hangs on to her play, but I see a growing unease and boredom with it and an growing interest in projects and activities (though, I have noticed this before and am not entirely sure what is happening). She always did prefer those that were more prescribed than open-ended-- it's been dd2 who has embraced raw, unbridled creativity. DD1 has always preferred facts and the realistic and recreating something fun and interesting rather than create something entirely new. I think she would do well with traditional academics.
I know what I need to do first-- not change her, because she's doing great-- but continue to change my habits so I can be ready for her.