Congrats to the mamas who've made it through to the 'other side'!! Very exciting.
Sorry your first day/night was so tough, PastorMama. That's my worst fear too. But I hope you've got access to some good support- maybe a volunteer PPD who needs hours for certification?
I did a two mile walk yesterday, and took a dip in the (chilly!) pond, and feel like that helped things along. Feeling kind of weird today- definitely intestinal "stuff" going on- but no contractions or even painful BH's. I have total faith she is coming when she's ready, and am not really "miserable" at least physically. I feel fine in my body ... I know all this small-scale stuff adds up to labor, and I know it's coming soon. I still think next weekend with the full moon, if not before. But we'll see. Maybe she'll surprise me and come earlier.
I am feeling very mentally/emotionally strained- just very alone and sort of isolated. I think I need to make the trip to see my mom and family this weekend. I really am not looking forward to adjusting to new double motherhood without the close support of family ... I will probably end up spending some time with them this summer, but don't want to keep DP from new baby or us. Hard situation. The first couple weeks will be okay, I will have PP doula help and some friend/family help, and possibly even DD in school still sometimes or camp. But then it'll be like "okay, here's your new 'normal'!" and it's very isolated here. Very different from when I had DD, and lived with my mom and had no other real responsibilities. Which of course makes sense, since I was 17/18, and it's good we have this 'normal' independent home/life. But it's far too isolated. I know if I don't get it sorted out I'm likely to run into trouble with baby blues... and I so, so don't want that.
But for now just taking it hour by hour, trying to get house in order and keeping an ear tuned in to my body.