As some of you know, I'm a special ed teaching assistant in a Title I school. We have 4 days left of school. I have such mixed feelings about the end of this school year. Some of the kids I've worked with this year I might not ever see again, and I feel sad about that. I'll never know how they are doing or if they are getting the services they need, and I really care about them and want good things for them. I don't know how to just let them go.
One child (who I do expect to work with again in the fall) is from a semi-neglectful home, and I'm really worried about him over the summer. I'm going to have a really hard time letting him go next week.
I'll be back at the same school next year, but in a different role. This year I'm a floating TA and I'm in 3 different classrooms over the course of the day -- mostly working with special ed students who are on the general education track. Next year I'll be in the self-contained grade 3-5 classroom (my buddy who I am worried about over the summer will in the that class next year!) I asked for the position when it became open and it is what I want, but I've learned so much and grown so much in the role that I'm in, and I like that I've gotten to know SO MANY kids this year (65 children sang happy birthday to me this year, and that was pretty special)! I'm going where I wanted to be in the first place, but I'm sad to leave where I am because it's been really intense and weirdly wonderful.
I am glad that I'm going back to the same school - I just found out for sure this week. It's a really wonderful school. There is a lot of need -- families in crises, parents who don't speak English, kids with parents in prison etc -- but there is such a wonderful staff of adults who really have a sense of mission and purpose about what they are doing, who really care about the kids.