I am still nursing my 2 year old. My husband thinks I should wean him before I have the baby. I go back and forth. On the one hand, my son gets so jealous if even the cat sits in my lap, and tries to push him off and sit with me. Maybe once he's closer to three, and there's a real baby that needs nursing, he won't be SO possessive, and won't be trying to push the baby out of my lap? (one can hope)
Then there are days that my nipples hurt really bad and I think, I can't do this, I can't make it through a whole pregnancy and beyond. Then I feel like a wuss because I am one of those SUPER lucky people who never had any pain nursing, so this is brand new and I think, well if it's not THAT bad maybe I can force myself to stick it out and it'll get better? And sometimes it does. There was pain, then no pain, and now the pain is back about half the time... Hm.
Then the really sweet times where it doesn't hurt make me so happy as it always has. I mean, I LOVE NURSING HIM and I've always thought I'd let him 100% self-wean... In those moments, I just never want to stop. I'm like nurse til you're six, that's fine with me!
I have no idea if my milk will dry up or not. I've always had plenty of milk, so I'd be surprised.
Oh but when I do nurse him, and I feel little twingey muscle "cramps" but not painful or anything, I get so paranoid it's somehow negatively affecting the baby. Someone please reassure me that this is totally fine. I mean, I know it must be, but I'd really like to hear it from other seasoned mamas!
One thing I worry about is when I'm actually birthing the baby. I plan to be in the hospital with midwives, and they let you stay two days and maybe I could go home sooner, or maybe my son could stay with me or I don't know... but I'm wondering how that will even go if he hasn't weaned by then, if he'll be able to fall asleep okay without me back home while I'm in the hospital, or if he'll want to nurse when the baby needs to, or if I won't want this giant toddler leaning on me while I'm all sensitive and recovering from childbirth, and then I feel bad for wondering that. Ugh.
I am definitely concerned about the whole jealousy thing too. How does that work when multiple kids are nursing? Do you just have to convince the older ones their turn is coming and not to freak out?