A little background on our situation:
DS1 will be going into his kindergarten year this fall, and I had found a great charter school for him to go to where we used to live, but then we found out we were moving out of state and I decided to try homeschooling. Well, we've been home together for the past 2 months along with his 10 month old brother. It hasn't been easy and Im really now trying to determine what would be best for DS1.
Here are the reasons why I thought I would like to homeschool:
-more time to influence my son the way we think is right.
-ideally not sick as much. (yes this is a true concern of mine especially since he gets colds often already and we dont vaccinate)
-I believe that because my son really loves socialization, he is easily influenced in order to find friends. I noticed this behavior when he went to preschool for fours months where we used to live. I would like him to have a better sense of himself and more confidence in his choices.
-we can foster his creativity and personal interests that i believe are pretty special
-i just cant believ that these 5 years are already passed, i still want more time with him while he is a child:)
-better nutrition. ive heard from many public schooling families that they give out sweets regularly whatever the occasion may be. its just not how we are.
here's why i think public school might be best for DS1:
-as i said earlier, my son LOVES people. i actually think he needs people much more than the average person. Since we've just moved, i havent yet been able to connect with other families, but i do plan to do so within the month, so this may not be an issue soon.
-my son also seems to really need a lot of attention and i just cant give him 24/7 attention. it seems since his brother was born, hes just much more needy.
-he doesnt listen to me most days, so i end up yelling. i hate this about myself. i try reading AP wesbites for discipline, but truthfully, i believe the reason he doesnt listen is because hes not getting enough attention one on one and like i said, its just not possible with the baby to give him all of my attention. and when i yell he starts to get angry and yell back, back talk, hit etc. its just not a great situation.
-i think he would be less bored, would enjoy the daily routine and from hi preschool experience, he just really seems to like to aim to please.
All in all, i still really want homeschooling to work for us, but im not liking the yelling and not listening. i want to be a nice mommy and give a lot more love than ive been able to lately. Some days are great and i get really excited thinking about different activities and lessons to do, but then other days just feel like a waste. I feel like he hasnt "done" anything all day, and staying home with me is just not a positive experience.
I know this was an incredibly long post, so if youre still reading:), please help me sort my thoughts, i would love to hear from your experiences of successes and failures.