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post #21 of 26
is 88 bpm a low read? how fast is it spposed to pump and why are doctors not fully honest? 88bmp isnt truly low for a fetus measuring 2 or 3 mm... she couldve just said we'll continue to monitor you so we'l see you in a week... i just hopeim not having another mc i realy dont think i could handle that at all...
post #22 of 26
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Originally Posted by hopefulmama412 View Post

is 88 bpm a low read? how fast is it spposed to pump and why are doctors not fully honest? 88bmp isnt truly low for a fetus measuring 2 or 3 mm... she couldve just said we'll continue to monitor you so we'l see you in a week... i just hopeim not having another mc i realy dont think i could handle that at all...

First off, I'm sorry you're going through this stress. Pregnancy after miscarriage is definitely anxiety-filled. I would suggest moving this conversation to a new thread, however, as it is about a current pregnancy. The OP has lost her baby and I think we should keep this thread about support for her loss.
post #23 of 26

Just checking in to ask -how are you doing? hug2.gif

post #24 of 26
Thread Starter 

How am I doing? I am...surviving.

 

I had the D&C procedure last week and have been in pain up until today. Even though the physical pain is finally subsiding, the emotional pain is very real and on-going. My mind always wanders back to what could have been if my peanut had survived. What would it have been like to finally be a mother? Would I be a good parent? Could I handle it? How would my family react and would they accept it? Etc etc. All I do is drive myself crazy dreaming and wishing impossible things. My pregnancy was a fluke and defied all the odds up until the point where the baby stopped growing. I have to accept that it wasn't meant to be and I have to move on. Otherwise, it's just another method of torturing myself which I'm already a master at.

 

I don't think I could do this again. I just don't think my heart could survive another loss like this.

 

Thank you sincerely for asking.

 

Best wishes to you all,

 

little starlet

post #25 of 26

Little starlet -

I will continue to be thinking of you. hug2.gifIf you do not find it offensive for me to say so, I will also be praying for you...Be well...

post #26 of 26

I've been thinking about you too littlestarlet.  I hope you continue to heal and find the path that is right for you.  hug2.gif

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