I'm finally taking steps to end my relationship with my kids' dad. We never married, but have lived together for more than 7 years at this point and have 2 kids together (plus my step-daughter).
I'm about to sign a lease for my own place to move in next month-and I am freaking out. This is really making things all to real and, while I'm excited, I'm pretty much terrified for these months of transition, worried out being financially independent (I've been mostly a SAH who WAH part-time, now moving to WAH almost full time, things are going to be tight), second guessing myself that this is the right decision, etc.
But, this place is very nearly perfect for us-Ithe location is maybe 10 minutes further away than I had wanted, but otherwise it's a great size, has a little yard, nice neighbors, just barely affordable, but doable...I feel like I can't turn it down because I doubt I will find anything better. The only thing holding me back is a feeling of panic at starting all over and doing it on my own, and of course, not having my kids with me every day (which pretty much explains why I stayed in this very unhealthy relationship for years longer than I should have).
STBX is rather...volatile, so while he is being agreeable now, it is subject to change at a moment's notice...definitely have not ruled out a custody battle at this point.
Reassurance/advice, needed please :)