Originally Posted by bthuntamerc
I want opinions from all different viewpoints.
I had my daughter at a hospital, but I labored at home for about 5 hours, then had a c-section soon after arriving at the hospital.
I have chosen a different doctor and hospital this time, and I believe they support my choices. I just have anxiety about things I can't control. A home environment could be better for that reason. I just don't want to make a rash decision because I'm feeling hormonal, you know?
OP, I have a lot of sympathy for your position. Would you mind sharing the things you have anxiety about? You do have a lot of time to decide, I think.
I will share my experience in case that might be useful. I have a history of anxiety stemming from childhood abuse.
When I got pregnant with my younger daughter, I considered home birth but ultimately went with hospital midwives. I wasn't comfortable with the only home birth midwife in the area who took my insurance (state insurance), and I live in a very small apartment.
I found it very empowering to make a list of things to discuss with my midwives, and they were amazingly supportive. In addition to being really open with my midwives about my fears, my personal history, my intense need to feel safe and like my baby was safe, and so forth, I also planned to bring my own clothes to labor in, a special essential oil blend that would help me feel at home, some focal objects that I found calming, electric candles, etc. I wanted to be able to feel as comfortable as possible. I had planned to take a tour of the maternity ward even though I'd given birth there before, but never did get around to it.
Now it turns out I ended up having an unplanned home birth. I will say that I wasn't very noisy during most of my early labor, and then when I was pushing, I roared four or five times. Later, I asked DP if I was screaming the whole time and he says I wasn't even very loud.
My family and I ended up going through one of the worst experiences of our lives, and I found the hospital staff to kind and caring and incredibly supportive of the mother-baby and father-baby bond. They were very flexible and wanted to do everything they could to help us, even when it became evident that our daughter wasn't going to make it - then they wanted to support us in parenting her not only through her short life but also during her dying.
I just want to encourage you that if there are things about your birthing environment that you are concerned about, you may be able to find ways to manage that even in the hospital. I don't know what your concerns are so I don't know if this is helpful, but since you are already with an OB, I thought you might find this pov useful. I don't know where in WA state you are, but I've had very good experiences with the UW medical system, wrt to my reproductive health, although I've never had a baby in their hospital system.
Edited by cyclamen - 6/14/13 at 7:03am