Spotting and really scared
I agree, call your midwife. Most of them are caring enough to help even if you haven't met with them yet. Or, I know you don't like doctors, (me either) but I had to be put on progesterone with this pregnancy. So they may be able to help. I'm seeing an OB through 12 weeks then switching to my Midwife.
In the meantime, prayers going out for you and your sweet baby! Remember that spotting doesn't always mean there is a problem. I spotted with my daughter and everything was fine. I lost my second and third babies and went from barely spotting to tons of blood. It is super scary and I know that! Praying everything is fine!
Now I just have to figure out how to deal with the depression and devastation. I miss my baby. ... It hurts so bad I can't breathe sometimes.
Thank you for all your care and concern and support. Please continue to pray for my healing, if you can. I hope you all have healthy, beautiful pregnancies and a peaceful journey with your little blessings inside your wombs.
Philothea, I am so sorry. When I had a miscarriage in 2009 it really helped to read the book "About What Was Lost," a collection of essays about different writers' miscarriage experiences. I'm glad you were able to have it naturally at home--I saw what you said in the other thread about feeling connected to your body. Wishing you healing and peace.
Philothea- I'm am so very sorry for your loss. I know how devastating it is to lose a child. I lost two back to back last year and was very depressed. I didn't want to leave the house because seeing a pregnant woman threw me into tears. A book that really helped me was "Couples and Miscarriage: healing together" -by Jody J. Nelson. It was so very helpful for me because it is written by a guy who, along with his wife, has lost. I never realized the pain it caused my husband too, so this book really helps you to support each other and realize that the pain and feelings you have are normal because you are grieving. So if your DH is willing to go through this book with you, I believe it will really help. At least it did for me and my DH. I actually think it brought us closer instead of pushing each other away (what we were doing.) Anyway, I will be praying for you and your family.