I am a lone single mom to a very energetic, funny, smart little dude, my 5 year old son's father is completely absent, my family lives in the uk, where I moved from ten years ago. I am 33 and a student and artist. I have lots of friends who are single parents but they have 50/50 custody with their ex, they have such fun lives, getting best of both worlds. I am feeling lonely and lately bitter and jealous. None of mu friends seem to understand how hard it is to not have any freedom for grown up time, they regularly ignore my invitations to come over after my son goes to bed to watch a movie or sit on my deck. I had a rare opportunity last night for a babysitter (money is impossibly tight) and my friend cancelled on me right as the sitter got here, so I went out feeling like a bit of a loser, had one glass of wine and came home. Then I end up feeling like I am overreacting in my hurt that this happens. I think my friends feel too much pressure on the importance of their company
for me so they avoid me. I would love some thoughts from others, I am just feeling sad, cornered and I'm beginning to think I'm going crazy.