pattimomma - yes, going back to work was interesting! I actually lived with a pregnant woman for a little while, starting a few weeks after, which I think helped normalize it and not make me so upset. I did have one prenatal in the month or so after that I had to keep from crying at, because it was a first time mom who was so excited, and was only 2 months ahead of where I would have been, which was really hard when I listened to her baby with the fetoscope. After that I was fine though. Just recently, hearing others talk about friends or clients due in September (when I would have been) has been hard though, and I'm sure the due date will bring it all up again!
I'm waiting to tell most people until at least 12 weeks, although my immediate family knows and a few select friends. I made a big hoopla out of it last time at about 6 weeks, which I will never repeat!
What are everyone's best ways of coping with the anxiety/fear/nerves? I've found that I really just can't focus on anything else work related, and have been reading fiction a lot. We are moving across the country next month, and work has stopped for me, so I've found it both good and bad to have so much free time. I like that I can rest, eat, and do things I enjoy, and not have to fake my way through a day of feeling normal quite yet (since I really don't!). My partner is gone until July 5th, which is also rough, making me worry that if I do have another loss, he won't be here to help me, although I have friends and family, but it isn't the same. So yeah, fiction reading, hulu, walks around the neighborhood....I really wish I could connect/communicate with this baby and have clearer pregnancy signs, but it seems like I'm just not able to at this point.
ChelseaKell - I've also had bleeding dreams, which I tried not to take as bad omens, but rather my subconscious working those fears out. There is a study that showed the more anxious a woman's dreams during pregnancy, the less complications her birth had :)