I have been feeling SO DOWN lately, mired down, bogged down, and just plain down down. I'm tired of "mom-ing", and tired of the low level chronic issues with my DD's dad. I'm tired of my DD's constant talking, and tired of going back and forth over whether or not to put her in preschool. I'm tired of our house being full of clutter, and tired of having no personal space, and tired of feeling like I have no room for myself. And then, on top of it all, I've suddenly found myself in a weird existential crisis where I've developed these really depressing post-modern type beliefs about the nature of reality, so now I can't even find a point to anything!!! I'm tired all the time, I can't lose weight, I have no self-control, I always feel kind of lazy and ashamed of myself, I feel simultaneously like I deserve to rest and like the only way to change my life is to DO stuff, and - GAH!
Okay, thank you. I had to get that out.