JNajla, I am not chiming in to sway you at all, but rather to let you know that your feelings are completely normal, natural, and warranted. I have struggled w/ BFing, too. Though my struggles were not as severe as yours, they were enough to tax me to the point of integrating formula. Trying to nurse Holly was literally driving me batty - to the point that I resented her every time I heard her "I"m hungry!" cry. A mother shouldn't feel that way. When I relented and made her first mixed bottle of EBM + formula, to my surprise I was relieved. And when she was done I was overjoyed! I felt so good seeing her satisfied and full. She was never getting enough off of my breast and was constantly hungry. Now when I hear the "I'm hungry!" cry I embrace is as a time to bond, as feeding time should be, no matter how the food is delivered. The bottom line is you should do what is best for your baby AND you. Only you know your breaking point and only you can make the call. But know that its YOUR best judgement. HUGS to you, dear!
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Ugh! I am so sorry you are feeling the pressure from your spouse. I know he wants the best for his child, but he should also want the best for his wife. I really hope you guys can find a comfort zone and seek the peace you so desperately crave.
Again, not to sway you, just illustrating how our situation played out, part of my decision to integrate formula was my husband. He saw how distraught I was trying to nurse. He feared for me and my happiness. Furthermore, exclusively breastfeeding meant he couldn't help me work through the problems at all. Now we can approach feeding as a team.
Well said, Shanna-cat and Spotty!!
And well said, Tenk. JNajla, you have succeeded. You have to think of these 4 weeks of breast feeding as success. That's 4 more weeks of breast milk your cherub got had you not tried at all. :-) I'm very proud of you for trying as hard as you have given the circumstances. Way to go, mama!
Also, and this may be a little selfish, but this is the only time I get to spend 12 weeks home with Emily and I don't want them to be stressful. I really want to enjoy this time as much as possible.
We are still having some latch issues.....And i developed mastitis earlier this week...holy hell did that ever suck! Taking Emily to the chiropractor next week due to the latch issues on the right side.
I am building up my supply and pumping so I can bf her on my left breast and replace the right with a bottle feed. In the meantime, we've also supplemented with formula here and there. She doesn't seem to mind at all!
My nipples are still incredibly sore.....the cracks and wounds are healed but it still hurts to wear any clothing at all.
I had to return to work at 10 weeks pp with 5 year old and I remember dreading the lack of sleep and having to get up and nurse before getting to my 1st meeting while looking professional. IT SUCKED!!! But I did it and you will figure out what works for you guys too
I called my LC and she told me to take Lecithin immediately. It's essentially an emulsifier and helps the milk flow more easily. So......today we've had 3 good feeds, no more breast pain, and the feeds are taking half the time!
She prescribed 1200mg of lecithin for 3-4 times daily for 2 weeks and then 1-2 times daily for prevention of plugged ducts and mastitis.
I have such respect for breastfeeding moms....I was so unprepared for the physical and mental challenges. It's not easy!