This is a very strange post. I'm not really looking for advice, but just a space to offload.
A dear dear friend invited me to her hen party yesterday and it's location couldn't be better for me ... my hometown. But I lied and said I have a wedding that weekend in another part of the country. I lied because my toddler was and still is a very high needs child in terms of sleep and still needs to be nursed to sleep and wakes constantly throughout the night to suck back to sleep. His waking is so frequent that I go to bed with him at 8pm and stay there until morning. Any alternative seems Impossible still, even more so now that he's teething so often and waking much more. However, I feel terrible that I cannot share such an important day with my dear friend. I'm going to see her the following morning but it won't be the same for her. I had to make the lie about the wedding very convincing and I just feel so uncomfortable and guilty. I couldn't tell her the truth as she wouldn't understand (trust me!). She has a very different child who sleeps well for babysitters and others. She's also not comfortable with breastfeeding beyond infancy and doesn't understand why I haven't attempted to wean. To protect her feelings, I felt I had to lie. It feels very crappy though. :-(
Even writing that has helped a little,
Sorry to offload!