Ok, so here's my situation. I have a daughter who will be 4 in September, an 18 month old son, and a 4 month old son. I stay home with them and some days are just better than others. I've been resentful towards my husband for being at work in the past after the first two babies. This time is totally different. I feel SO overwhelmed and stressed out. I don't have ANY patience. And my frustration boils over in my reactions towards my oldest. Instead of being calm and explaining something to her, I freak out and am way too short with her. I feel lots of guilt because I don't feel like I'm enjoying my kids while they are young, but all I want is for them to be bigger, so they'll rely on me less. My OBGYN says that yes this is PPD when I went to see him just over a month ago, but he wanted me to give it time to pass. Additionally, I started losing a lot more hair than in the past and actually developing bald spots. In the past week, I've seen a Dermatologist to rule out a scalp condition and a regular Doctor for blood work, which came back normal. I also have the Mirena IUD. I just don't know what's going on or how best to handle things going forward. Any advice is welcome. I plan to get the Mirena removed this month and I'm debating starting medication that the regular Doctor has offered for the PPD. I'm just scared to take something and become worse. And part of me is still in denial that this even is PPD because I can't imagine anyone having 3 children in 3.5 years NOT being stressed out and overwhelmed.
Thanks in advance for your help!