So, I've been stressing....
Big shocker...32 weeks and stressed?? I have been really worried about finding a pediatricain for this baby. After Emma died, we moved from Kansas to Utah. Dh is going to grad school next fall and we have lots of family here, so we buried Emma here. Anyway, that left me without my ped that I loved!!! After Emma died, my Ped called me and just cried with me. She made sure I knew it wasn't my fault and reassured me it was just a freak accident. But, I have been worried about finding a doc here and having to tell them everything...I hate saying how she died (if you want to know, go to www.ldsinfantloss.com
and click on the Our Story link. It's in the month of August). Anyway...I've been stressing about that. Well, I talked to her today and, I love her. She told me that she would be more than happy to talk to who ever we decide to have be our Ped here. She told me that if anyone thinks that Emma's death was something other than a freak accident, to run the other way! She and the other 5 docs in her practice talked about this after Emma died. They all agreed, it was a freak accident...nothing that could have been prevented or would happen again. *HUGE SIGH OF RELIEF*!!!
So, I'm feeling better about the whole finding a Ped process.
On another stress note....I get so sick of people trying to scare me out of having a homebirth. There is this very sweet lady I go to church with. She is a labor and delivery nurse...why I ever told her I was having a homebirth is beyond me. Well, I told her before I knew her job.
Anyway, on Sunday she came up to me and told me she was VERY worried and that she is praying that I will realize I need to be in the hospital. Hmm...praying for her will, not mine huh? She is praying that she will be able to reach me and help me understand how dangerous this is, for me to have a homebirth. Then last night she came over to visit. She brought me a hospital diaper bag. In her words, "Well, since you're determined not to go to the hospital, I thought I'd bring some of the hospital to you!" Very nice, it's full of formula coupons. :P Anyway, she then proceeds to tell me how dangerous (yes, again) a homebirth is, especially since I'm a VBAC. She thinks I should just have another c-section, because she agrees that I would have a very hard time finding a hospital and doctor that would "let" me have a vbac. And, I am at high risk (because of the previous c-section) and even higher risk since it's only been 16 months since my last baby was born. Well, by the time this kiddo gets here it will have been 18 months. I have assured her that if there is the slightest inkling of anything wrong, I trust my midwife and she will get me to the hospital. She just turns red and bites her tongue...does it really count as biting your tongue when you tell the person that's what you're doing??
Then she tells me that it's a good thing I'm not her daughter because there is no way she'd ALLOW this to happen. Excuse me??? Allow it?? I'm an adult, as I am sure your daughter is. ARRRRRR!
After she left Jeremy was really mad at her. He's decided to make up a fact sheet about how it really is safe for me to have a vbac and how the U.S. doesn't have the best infant mortality rate, etc...
It just drives me BATTY when people try to scare me out of having the birth that I feel is best for my family. Ok, I just needed to vent that!