So I know this can go into the whiner thread but I feel so embarrassed/jilted that I felt I "deserved" to make a new one for this lol.
So last night around 7pm I started getting contractions that continued until 2am. Didin't follow the normal pattern, got heavier, more painful, and closer together. I thought "this is it." I called my MW at around 12am still unsure since they were painful but they weren't THAT painful but we live 1 1/2 away and when I saw her earlier that day she said that I could go quick based on my lady parts and family history. Anyways, So I go upstairs wake up my husband and tell him my convo with the midwife and we get going to the hospital.
We stop for gas and food via sheetz at the halfway point. I'm thinking "if I really am in labor then this is redic. but it is what it is." My back was hurting enough that I did not mind getting up and walking around again. Aftter that my contractions started to taper off but I thought we can so far already this HAS to be it. They completely stopped about 15 minutes before we got to the hospital :( Well, not completely but they were much, much less painful.
We pull in completely confused at 2am. I have to give instructions/handle the whole thing, telling H to go into the ER, find a nurse to check in etc. I felt extremely silly and odd to be wheeled up to the L&D since even though I was praying I was actually in labor I knew it wasn't it. At least let me have some sort of change from that morning's appointment!
Nope. I got hooked up to the monitor and even though it showed I was still have contractions every 5 minutes or so they weren't big ones and they looked "irregular." Cervix was the same as it was at 1pm :( They kept me till 3:30 since LO's heartbeat was really slow but picked up after I ate/drank something. Apparently she was "sleeping through my contractions." They unhooked me and had me walk around since I'm so far away to see if that would make a difference. I was seriously bouncing up and down in the room saying "Get out of me Jaya! You don't have a choice anymore. We just drove 2 hours to have you!!" Evidently she did have a choice because after 45 minutes of walking/hopping around my cervix was still the same and I got discharged.
Poor Dh had to take the day off of work today because we didn't get home until 6am, when he would normally leave for work. We drove a total of 6 hours back and forth to the same damn hospital, since I had a weekly appointment that afternoon then a false start. Plus now he seriously thinks I'm completely fucking batty and said he's not going to believe me until my water breaks, urgh.
Good things: Apparently I'm not that super crazy since the 2 nurses that came to check on me said that they had multiple trips to the L&D before all their kids were born. Sometimes it's hard to tell. Yay, sympathy. My MW was awesome about it too...
since we were SO confused going in it was kind of nice to have a practice run so that when/if I am actually in labor DH knows where to go and what to do. I got to go through the intake process and since I didn't go on a hospital tour it was kind of nice to see everything even though it was a lot more medically then I expected/thought. Several months ago when we were still deciding where to go I walked down there and peeked into one of the rooms and I remember it being much nicer... but I'm assuming the intake/monitor room is probably different than the L&D rooms since I didn't see a plastic baby bin anything in there. Just a monitoring machine for heartrate/contractions.
I realized how NOT ready I was, at least not ready when I was exhausted at 3:30 in the morning. We heard another baby being born across the hall and it kind of freaked me out. I don't think it actually hit until then that labor=baby. I'm going to go into labor and have a crying child come out of me... I'm going to have a kid, whoa-type of feeling.
Anyways, that's the end of my super long rant. Next time I'm just sleeping through whatever even if I feel like I can't. If I wake up in the middle of the night in the pushing stage so be it. At least I'm not wasting 6 hours of my day/night and the money it takes to get there. We went through a whole tank of gas between both appointments. Yuck. I'm moody now today. Thanks for listening. Now to awkwardly do the dishes because I have issues reaching the sink with my preggo belly. I was so excited last night to not have to deal with that anymore.