I have written here before about wanting leave my emotionally abuse husband. Today we actually separated.
I feel so weird. I am shock. We had such a nice morning. Went to the library with our kids and got a hair cut.
Then I went to a job interview which was so-so. And I came home and he's fuming. Got in a fight with my Mom ( who gives us a place to stay and pays most all our bills and adores us). I said then go out and cool off. No he said he's fine. He starts going over what happened. He starts blowing up like he hasnt in years. Screaming, livid, terrifying. On and on he goes. I try to calm him and then I am done. All the therapy, gifts, time I have given trying to keep him calm. I am sick of it. I say get out and he does.
I call the domestic abuse hotline and a lawyer. It's Friday so I have to wait to get legal advice til Monday.
Tonight I am in shock and terrified for my family's future. Will he fight me in court? How do I let go, we had so many wonderful beautiful days? Things were going pretty good. I had to walk on egg shells but our kids love him and we were together.
Please tell me I will survive this. I want to just awake from this nightmare. I don't even know what to tell the kids when Dad doesn't tuck them in tonight. Should I invite him back for now? I feel like my life just got hit by a hurricane