So I've only known I'm pregnant for a week, and yesterday I realized that almost all of that week has been consumed with worries about miscarriage, telling myself "this isn't real yet --- don't get attached!" fretting over every symptom or lack thereof, etc.
Now, I don't believe in the power of positive thinking in the sense of if-I-say-it-it-will-happen (in that case, no wanted baby would EVER be lost), but I was kind of thinking, "is this helping me any?"
I figure I will be just as devastated to lose this pregnancy whether I downplay it to myself or not --- and if I DO carry my little tadpole to term (and chances are, after all, 85% that I will), I will be sad to have missed celebrating these amazing weeks where I have pretty much the most exciting secret I've ever kept and I want to be on top of the world.
SO I decided that I am just going to go for it. I am going to love this baby, and I am not going to worry. When I worry and fear I will sit with my feelings and acknowledge them and then let them go as best I am able.
And I thought others might want to join in? And have a thread focusing on joy and hope and new life and all those wonderful things? And support each other lovingly if something awful does happen, but try to let go of the fear?
Because in the immortal words of Office Space, that'd be greeeeeaaaaaaaaaat.