This is an unexpected rainbow.
I was told I was infertile.
We (mostly I) chose to keep this baby.
He was not pleased in the beginning but was "all in" pretty quickly he says...he behaves a little differenty. I struggled and am still struggling to get excited.
I have ten weeks to go. I'm on injections. I'm working a lot. He's been gone a lot travelling. I'm exhausted. I cry often. I feel badly I'm not excited and he gets angry at me when I try to talk to him about how I feel since "I chose to keep the baby". I want this baby, no question but I'm terrified. I've still got to survive 10 weeks of summer heat big feet pregnant. Give birth (to which mr supportive wants to be outside for the icky parts....), breastfeed, recover, and work.
I have felt disconnected from this little girl, and I don't think I will truly bond with her or believe she is real until she is born. I worried last time, and I am worried again how my children will cope with a new addition. I have anxiety disorder which really doesn't help.
I really want to settle on a name for her, I thought we had but now I'm not sure, difficult when my fil kindy announced her possible name at my birthday party in front of everyone *sigh*
Having this be my first baby, I am not who will probably have the best advice, but for me there have been a few things that I like to do to bond with hubby and baby. I, like other women that have posted, don't feel totally connected to this little guy inside of me but I like to think we got some kind of connection going on :) I try to incorporate him into my life. I like to sing to him in the shower and I read to him out loud so he can hear my voice when I want to read. I hold my hand on my belly when he's moving a lot to remind me I got a little human inside me! And I think about how I love him and hope that the good hormones inside of me are getting sent to him so he can "feel" of my love for him in some way. It may sound silly but if you want to try something to connect to him, that's what I'd suggest. I know it's probably nothing compared to the feelings that come when baby is born, but it helps me in times of stress and discomfort that come with pregnancy.
With my husband, I try to be as open as possible about how I'm feeling. Sometimes I hold back and it definitely shows. A lot of times we end up being closer to each other after I share how I feel and maybe let out some tears. It keeps him on the same page and I don't feel left alone.
Best wishes! Sounds like you have a lot on your plate and you are doing the best you can :)