I'm 20 weeks along in my sixth pregnancy. (No twins, had the first two kids the easy way, by walking down the aisle with their father, LOL.)
This pregnancy has been very different. In some ways, it's the easiest pregnancy I've ever had. With my others, I had horrible morning sickness in the first trimester, and horrible heartburn that made me throw up and unable to sleep in the third trimester. The second trimester was barely a blink of a reprieve. This time, I threw up a few times, then started taking Unisom and felt SO MUCH better! I've been a bit tired, but not bad at all.
I also have an anxiety disorder that gets worse when I'm pregnant, partly because of hormones, and partly because I can't take my meds. This time around my anxiety is better, and worse. See, my youngest is five right now, and I have spent the past few years working hard on my anxiety, learning ways to cope, and making a ton of progress. So partly, I am doing so much better because I have a lot of coping mechanisms that help. My DH keeps telling me all the time how amazed he is at how well I'm dealing, and I know it's absolutely true. At the same time, before this pregnancy it had been MONTHS since I had an anxiety attack, and I was getting used to living without it most of the time. Now I'm thrust into it again, where in my previous pregnancies it was just more of what I was used to. Honestly, I had almost forgotten what it was like, and now it's my all the time. I kind of feel like I'm drowning, and I'm struggling with feelings about how unfair it is to have to go through this again, and feelings of almost being sorry I agreed to have another baby. (And at the same time, I feel like I can't talk to anyone but my DH about it, because I will get really upset the fist time someone says, "Then why did you choose to have another baby?" Most people just do not understand the upsides to having so many kids, and can't grasp that the downsides are worth it!)
I am having one problem that I've never had before, which is pain in my hips (actually, it's on the inside of the joints, I guess in my pelvis?) and lower back. It comes and goes, and sleeping with a body pillow seems to help. I wonder if it's connected to the fact that this baby seems so much lower than my other babies? It feels like she's so low, and the tech at my 20 week ultrasound told me that she was head down and pressed right against my cervix. I can feel her bumping into my cervix all the time! Is that weird? I'm sure my other babies stayed much higher until they dropped.
Also, something not physical, is that I am really enjoying being a bit older and more financially secure, and not having any other small babies right now so I can focus on this pregnancy and devote more resources to this baby. I feel like I can buy luxuries, and just kind of have fun the way I imagine most people do with their first, if they aren't young and poor and planning a wedding like we were! Edited by michelleepotter - 7/30/13 at 10:10am