First time starting a new weekly thread...woo! Hope I'm not stepping on anyone's toes, but I had a topic I'd like to bring up.
Let's talk about our birthing plans. We get a sense of what others are planning based on general conversation, but I'm interested to hear more directly what others are doing.
Are you doing a hospital, birth center, or home birth? Midwives vs doctors? Do you have a scheduled C-section? What are your reasons for what you've chosen (or what might have happened to reduce your freedom of choice, like health complications, etc)?
AFM, I am planning a home birth, with CPMs. I just always saw myself birthing at home since one of my sisters has done it three times now very happily, and I know a couple of other women who have done it and been happy with their experiences. I am afraid I would not be able to stand up for what I want if I was in a hospital setting. I have a tendency to cry when I go to the doctor for even minor things - what a basket case I'd be if I had an OB being forceful with me during labor.
But...now that the time is getting closer I am getting nagging doubts and getting a bit scared. I have enjoyed my care with the midwives so far, and I am confident in the abilities of those I've met. But as soon as I read an article or thread about how home birth is unsafe and hear a story of someone who lost a baby who failed to breathe after birth or something like that, I start to freak out. I know that statistically, the odds are on my side to have a normal, uncomplicated birth. But how to handle the fear of something going horribly wrong and what the aftermath would be like? The thought of changing my plan now is just crazy, but it has crossed my mind. I find myself feeling more concerned about baby than myself and my hopes about a natural birth. I guess I'm finally feeling "maternal" and thinking more "what about HER?" than "what about ME?" I know a natural birth is better for BOTH of us, but if she, for example, failed to breathe after coming out, a hospital would be safer than home.
Do you have any fear or doubts regarding your choice? What other feelings might you have about your plans? How does your partner feel about your plans?