It's funny how different they all are.
Ds (that still feels odd to type) started purposeful smiles oddly early. My first great big grin was yesterday. He has dimples! He's 3 weeks tomorrow.
I got some milk from HMHB this time off their Facebook page for my state. I've gotten also banked human milk when my babies were very small. It was 5 dollars/oz but the NICU wouldn't accept milk from my sister. I've gotten milk from my sisters and friends, too.
I have not been posting but I have been lurking around. I have something that I was hoping you ladies could give me some feedback on.
I had a tiny tear when my little man was born, they couldn't decide if they should stitch it or not. The OB who was at the hospital ended up putting in a few stitches. This week was my 6 week check up, not with my midwife but with the OB who I really hardly even remember. I feel completely healed and have already resumed all my activities and I kind of assumed he would just ask a couple questions or what not. When I got there the nurse immediately told me to take all my clothing off and gave me the skimpy little robe. With my last pregnancy with a doctor I probably would have done it. I hated every second of my doctor appts and always left feeling pushed around and of taken advantage of. It was such a huge anxiety that I usually couldn't sleep the night before I had to go in. This time around I had a wonderful midwife who respected me and let me research and decline anything I didn't feel was necessary. It was super empowering and I had an amazing VBAC. For the first time I feel like my body is my own and very capable and powerful. So when the nurse told me to disrobe I just said no thanks and that I feel healed up and it was not necessary. She puffed right up and told me it was mandatory and gave me a talk about how I HAD to, which was very intimidating! It was a complete flash back to my last pregnancy and the loss of dignity that came from that. So I just said No thank you again, and she said that I should leave. So I did, quite happily actually. My husband though, was horrified! Its really of making me second guess myself. I have to see my midwife this week too and now I am so embarrassed to tell her that I got myself kicked out of his office. I just can't imagine what we could have gained from that type of exam though? Although I usually do thorough research before I just decline things. Its all healed, stitches out, its not like having a stranger poke around there is going to really help? Or did I miss out on something important that he would have done?
Am I crazy? Or do any of you other postpartum ladies feel defensive of your bodies?
Ugh. Besides that everything is going well here. We also had our first cold come through too. The little man is still snuffly but it hasn't effected his nursing and he doesn't seem fussy at all. And I FINALLY got a smile from him! Hurray!