Wow, I am on an emotional roller coaster. I did not really experience this with my first! My daughter is out of school for the month of August (of all months) and I am feeling like I wish I could be a better mama right now. I will never have the opportunity to have a month with just her again and most days, I am too tired to even take her to do fun things or to be the mom I usually am. I feel like I am raising my voice and just not having as much patience. I am in between mourning the fact that we will never be a family of 3 again and being excited to meet our new girl. It's just so different this time around! I am more emotional and tired. I love my first baby girl and I can't believe we will be a family of 4 soon!
And there is the unknowns of the birthing process. As some of you may remember, I am going for a home birth VBAC. I have a fabulous midwife now and I completely trust her but it is so hard to know what my body and I will do. I know we all experience the unknowns. Just wondering how it will all turn out.
Trying to find ways to enjoy these last weeks of my final pregnancy too. Realizing that I will never feel these strong movements again and that I will never get to have this big ole belly makes me kinda sad too! Ahh!
If anyone has any tips on fun things to do with a 3 year old or ways to make her feel special, I am all ears. Thanks for listening! I am trying to focus on the positives and I know people make it through this transition all the time but it is harder than I thought!