I started ttc for the first time when I was 19. I am now in my late thirties. I have been through hell and back with infertility and treatments and loss. I also now have three kids through IVF.
DH is DONE. He couldn't be more done. It's the logical thing. We are really struggling financially now. We have no family support near us. It's hard ... very hard.
However, the idea of never being pregnant again makes me so sad it's overwhelming. I mean almost panicked overwhelming. I think I just have so many issues from spending my whole adult life in this pursuit and now that it's over I just don't know how to move on.
I really love being pregnant and having newborns and I feel like I'm good at it and enjoy it so much but I'm not just making babies - I'm making people - people that I need to be responsible for and take care of for at least 18 years. The idea of schooling and feeding and trying to fit upwards of four teenagers in my house is a lot less appealing. I try to keep that in mind but it still breaks my heart that I'll never be pregnant or have a little baby ever again.
Has anyone else experienced anything like this? Any advice?