On Monday August 5th I was 41 weeks 6 days pregnant. My midwife came to my house to give me a stretch and sweep and give me the ingredients for the verbena cocktail. I took the first dose at 3pm but vomited an hour later. I took the 2nd dose at 8pm w/ half a gravol this time. Started getting ctx’s at 9pm, 2-3 min apart but not painful. I knew they were close together but wasn’t sure how painful they needed to be before I called.
By 10:30-11pm they were painful enough to ask my midwife, doula and photographer to come. I was still worried they might fizzle out and they would have to go home but I didnt want to wait too long either.
By 12 everyone was there and I was having to breathe and focus through contractions. I tried lots of different positions, leaning against the counter, sitting on the ball, leaning on my husband and making him be a “tree” (I think that was the best way). Hip and low back pressure felt good but I didnt know when to ask for it so sometimes my midwife or doula would do it and I was always happy.
I think I got into the pool around 1am for maybe an hour but eventually I felt too hot so I got out and opened some windows to cool off, and stood in the open door way.
I remember looking at the oven clock and seeing it was 2:30, and felt really discouraged and was hoping that I wouldn’t have to experience contractions like this for several more hours. For some reason I got the time 5am stuck in my head, I didnt want to still be in labor at 5am, lol
My mw said she was going to take a nap and to wake her up if I needed her, but instead I asked her to check me and break my water if she could to speed things up. (She had offered to do this earlier but I declined because I was afraid of a more painful labor) I ended up being fully dilated with a lip of cervix so she broke my water.
Surprisingly contractions didnt get any more painful after this like I thought they might, but I didnt like the feeling of gushing amniotic fluid everywhere so I got back into the pool. Pretty quickly I felt different feeling pushing contractions, after 2 of those I decided to lean over the edge of the pool and try pushing.
This freaked me out and I kept whining “I’m not ready for this, i’m not ready to push” like a big baby.
Didnt take long at all and his head was crowning but I kept feeling like I was going to tear the front of my crotch, and was reluctant to push through it, so my midwife suggested I support the area with my hands and I think this made me feel better about it. I kept saying it hurt and I didn’t know what to do because I didnt want to tear myself so my midwife told me I could just breathe and give my tissue a chance to stretch. I kept a hand down there on his head so I could feel what was going on and eventually got up the courage to push it out. After the head was born I wanted the whole thing to be over with and I started getting a little mad and begging them to take the rest of him out but they reminded me I needed to push to get him out, lol. He was born at 4:34am (so I wasnt still in labor at 5! ) and brought up to my chest. Things are a little hazy after this but this is the best I can remember.
We stayed in the pool for maybe 10-15 min when the cord was clamped and cut and I got an oxytocin shot in the arm to control my bleeding/deliver the placenta. We had discussed letting it come naturally but I guess this became necessary because of my blood loss. I tried to sit up to get out of the pool and ended up fainting and woke up on the living room floor minutes later. My midwife and two doulas pulled me out. I apparently lost a lot of blood and my midwife started an iv and ran 2 bags of fluid even though I was begging them not to give me an IV (not really being reasonable, lol). She also gave me a misoprostol tablet to disolve under my tongue and 2 more to swallow. I passed out each time I attempted to sit up so I stayed on the ground under blankets. I really really wanted to get up to sit on the couch but I was just too dizzy. I kept telling them to please not make me go to the hospital. I stayed propped up on my doula who sat behind me for a long time. I had to get 2 stitches and I screamed through the first one because I could feel it.
After what seemed like forever (probably 5 hours) I got helped up to the couch so I could lay down there and snuggle my baby even though I really didnt feel up to it. I had to lay down because I still couldnt be in an upright position. I dont remember much of the morning but I recall my midwife went to take a nap upstairs since she’d been here all night for almost 9 hours and probably didn’t feel comfortable leaving me how I was. She checked on us later and left around around 11am. She told me the next day that if it was anyone else she would have suggested they go to the hospital for assessment but she knew how much I didn’t want to go (and I wouldn’t have even if they tried, too stubborn). It’s 4 days later and I still have low blood pressure when I stand up but I’m feeling much better and I’m glad I did it.
This is my mom holding him, I'm usually behind the camera so I'm going to get my husband to help me with some pics of us together
Edited by SunnyMuffin - 8/13/13 at 10:08am