Im new to the site and seeking some support an maybe someone to chat to who knows what im going through. Heres my story, bare with me
So i have a son, almost 2. His labour was 9 hours long and ended in the crash team getting him out via episiotomy and ventous. He had the cord round his neck twice due to me having a super long cord.
I have, 8 weeks ago, had my daughter who was born after an emergency section due to a cord prolapse. It was all so quick. They discoverd my prolapse at 13.19pm and my daughter was born at 13.24.
She was taken away for 3 hours to be tested on then my husband had her, i woke up around 5 hours after the op.
I then was told that as it happend so quick, the surgeons etc didnt have time to scrub up so there fore i was going to be kept in for a week on iv antibiotics so i didnt get a wound infection however 2 days later a consultant said id be fine and discharged me, no oral antibiotics! Low an behold, had my staples removed on day 5 an the section wound came apart and showed signs of infection. Ive since had 2 infections and, 2 months on, the wound is still open and unbelievably sore and i have a district nurse visit my house everyday and they have to open up my wound an pack the inside with this sponge like stuff that encourages it to heal from the inside out. This is pure torture and absolute agony and i scream an push the nurse away. My poor son cries when the nurse comes (husband works so i lay on sofa to have it done as i cant leave the kids on their own).
Im starting to feel really down. I feel sad i never saw my daughter born, i never got that first special hold or skin to skin, i have a photo of holding her when i woke up an cant remember it, they cut open my daughters head with the scalpol trying to get her out as they were rushing (glad they did as she would of died otherwise) and thats now scarred although its on her hair line so wont be noticed as her hair grows, im in constant pain everyday with my wound, its always sore, i shake an get nervous when the nurse arrives because i know how painful it will be when she packs it, i cant even look at my tummy because i can see where its open, can litrally use my two fingers to separate it, its disgusting.
Worst part is, a cord prolapse is very rare but ive been told that if my waters had of broken when i had my son (they did only when his head was born), i would of ended up having a cord prolapse with him (my waters broke as i arrived to hospital with my daughter) which is why it instead ended up round his neck and that i had a prolapse this time due to another long cord which is obviously a problem i have and means i will need sections for future babies as the risk of natural birth is too high. Im glad in a way as id never risk a natural birth again but with all the problems im having still with my wound, the thought of another section terrifies me an puts me off wanting more children in future even though ive always been adamant id have 4 children. Having a cesarean was painful enough but having it packed is on a whole other level. Ive been having it packed for 3 weeks now an was told when it was done today, that its not healing/closing so they have had to change what they pack it with and its even more painful. I couldnt walk properly afterwards.
Its so hard. I have a nearly 2yo who i want to play with, jump and roll around with and an 8 week old baby to look after and the pain makes it so difficult.
I cant be the only one going through this? I feel so alone and down right now. Ive spoken to my health visitor about how im feeling and shes coming to see me again next week and wants me to go see my gp too. I think i need to if im honest. But the thought of ending up on tablets for my mood makes me feel even more depressed.
Have any of you ladies been through or going through the same??
If you got to the end of this post then i take my hat off to you! Thank you for reading it all. Be great to hear from someone who can relate and i can chat to about things.
Many thanks x